To all the readers out there..
Im writng out my whole life to make me feel less weighed down. To those who don't know me and to those who do. This is me laid out strip naked, thoughts opened and imagination runned wild! Excuse my english grammer and stupid incorrect spelling mistakes! that is the outcome of not concentrating in english classes, instead I was doodleling away on my textbook..the commom "S 4 ?" and "he loves me, he loves me not"!<<< have not a clue if doodleling is even a word!, well straight to the point! I should of been concentrating more back then! :)
So far you know that im bad in writing, so you ask yourself why the hell have you started a blog!?!. hmmm i ask myself that too. But i think there's a point in everyones life where you wish you can just stop time and rewind back your whole life. And ask yourself who have you become?? and thats what im here to find out. My purpose is to not only share my story but to maybe remember them myself...hope you enjoy my chit chat! and hopefully wil not bore you to death! :)
1989, The year I vaguely remember. Yet it is written on every form I complete, It is a year where Miami Vice's 100th episode was seen on TV, and Madonna's "Like a Prayer" premiers on worldwide pepsi commercial. And of course not forgetting, somewhere in London, around summer late June. My mother had the pain every mother goes through. I was a week late and my mother was getting groggy by the minute. I guess I was pretty laidback even then! not wanting to come out of my shell. But when I did, I weighed a whopping 9 lbs. And had thick jet black hair, fair skin and slit like eyes. I do remember this by the many photos I've seen during my lifetime. I was the second child and the last. I think mum had enough after giving birth to me! There was a 9 year gap between me and my sister. You can say I was a menopause baby. As my mum was in her late thirties... Well hey! I say never to late for anything! I grew up in a two bedroom council flat in london, and it is stil my home till now. It is the heart of our family and this house is filled with many memories I can remember..I can still smell my dads cooking, and hot summers where the sun used to shine so bright I could hardly see the cartoon show playing on the TV. As the sun used to shine its reflection on it. I loved playing outside but I was only alowed to play in my garden and never outside the building. It gave me a sense of protection, although sometimes i earged to breakthrough the doors. I remember my dad strongely and he was definetly a strong image that lingers in my mind. Before he passed away May 2001. He was a character everyone can remember. He was a musician and a entertainer. He made everyone laugh with his cheesy jokes and filled everyones tummy with his talent of cooking. But most of all he stunned everyone by the passion he had for music. He was a karaoke king, and I really do think he could of made it big back in the motherland Philippines, but of course it wasn't meant to be. That did not stop him from singing, and playing the piano. Not forgetting his talent with the guitar. You name he can do it. I look back and wish I had the confidence as he had. And maybe I would be a singer right now?? :) ok Im dreaming big! haha! but seriously if there was one person who wasn't afraid of anything. It was my dad....
1990's. The era I grew up as a child, and where the market for prepared foods grew enormously. Chilled ready-prepared meals overtook frozen ones by 1999. As people became more and more busy to not have enough time to cook. But that was never seen in my house. Mum was working on a full time job and the same goes for dad, but food was rarely from a box. It was the total opposite. Fresh food and rice was served everyday. Mum always tried to teach me how to prepare rice. But as a child I was stubborn and just wanted to eat it rather then cooking it. The summer used to stay for atleast a month! and days would linger into the late evenings with the sun still shining. We could plan are outings knowing it wouldn't rain in the afternoons. I remember this by the smile on everyone's faces. Summer to me was happy times. Picnics, waterfights and birthdays.And everyone's birthdays where in the summer! Birthdays came with barbecues, karaoke time, close friends and family get togethers. My parents used to prepare atleast a day or two before each event. Marinating the meat, with gushes of soya sauce, bay leaves, pepper, brown sugar, salt and not forgetting 7-up! Which back then I used to think was weird. But it produced the best barbecues ever! I guess I developed a taste for things even at the early ages of my life. I was picky and wanted every childs favourites! Ice cream, sweets and full on good food! and coming from an asian background, I loved my noodles! :). So you can say I was on the chubby side :) My dad spoiled with love and attention. Not forgetting the countless times we would go to resturants. Mum would tell him not to spoil me to much, but as a dad and a daughter your relationship has a bound no one can break. And thats what I remember him for.
Music was the energy in our house. Waking up to dad playing the piano was normal, It was a daily rountine for him and became a routine for me too. I would sit down while dad would repeatedly teach me the "do re me fa so la te do" over and over again. Until I can do it with both of my two hands, eyes closed. Music back then was pop hits and "spice girls" covered my bedroom wall. But at heart I always remember the timeless songs, Elvis Presley, The Beetles, and every parents theme love song. Dad would have these songs playing throughout the whole day. Locking it into my small mind. Countless times he would embarass my sister and I with his " La bamba song". But I look back now and think to myself, "he was pretty good!" that song got everyone up and going. As if it was just natural to him. "Dante the entertainer!". I remember my mum would hide away behind the kitchen wall, praying he would not pull her to dance. But of course my dad did exactly that. Thats the thing with my parents. Dad was loud and Mum was quiet. I guess they balanced eachother out. And it worked perfectly..
